happiness.

This is honestly the happiest I've been in such a long time, I really don't think I've ever been this happy. I'm loving life, and I am so blessed to have the people that I do in my life. A very special girl has walked into my life and she's the best thing that's ever happened to me. I'm building a close relationship with God and it feels so good. The Bible study that we've started is really starting to go somewhere, I know that He has pretty awesome plans for it. I'm always smiling, and I love it.

Resolutions.

-to not swear as much
-to start working out, at least a few times a week
-to go to church more often
-to eat healthier

more to be added...

things have a funny way of working out.

the end of something bad can lead to the start of something good. we trade depression and tears for happiness and laughter. and needless to say, i'm excited for what's to come.

Vinyl

12" Vinyl

Carpathian 'Isolation'

Dead Swans 'Sleepwalkers'

Defeater 'Travels'

Down To Nothing 'The Most'

Guns Up! 'Outlive'

Have Heart 'Songs to Scream at the Sun'

La Dispute 'Somewhere at the Bottom of the River Between Vega and Altair'

Set Your Goals 'This Will Be the Death of Us'

The Blue Letter 'Prima Facie'

Cold World 'Dedicated To Babies Who Came Feet First'

Crime In Stereo 'Selective Wreckage'

7" Vinyl

Have Heart 'What Counts'

Have Heart 'You Can't Go Home Again'

La Dispute '7"'

Wishlist

• Macbook Pro
• 8x10 Ampeg Bass Cab
• Blackberry Tour
• iPod Video 120GB
• Ernie Ball Music Man Stingray Bass
• a ton more vinyl
• a record player
  

(more to be added later)

My heart ticks in beat with these kids that I grew up with.

My friends are some of the amazing people that you will ever meet, and I think a lot of times I take them for granted. They always have been there for, and they will always continue to be there for me. I feel like I'm not the best friend at times, trying to weigh decisions on what to do and I feel like a lot of them do not involve my close friends. I love each and one of them to death, and I would do absolutely anything for them, but like I said, I feel like I take that for granted. I propose to really work on becoming better at this, a better friend. To all of you reading this, you know who you are.

Disconnecting,

detaching, letting go, whatever you want to call it, is one of the hardest things that I've ever dealt with. Staying friends is what I want, but I never knew how much "just being friends" could hurt. When you're with someone for so long, the way you are around them gets settled in. And when you break up, all of that changes, sometimes instantly. We can never go back to the way we were (although I wish that we could, more than anything), because things never happen the same way twice. I never wanted this, but maybe it's for the best. I'm picking up the pieces. I'm trying to make sense of all of this. I'll get better, I just need time to heal.